Contemplating the End…

…of Old Sturbridge Village. Not the end of the Village itself, mind you. The Village is a wonderful place that will always be near and dear to my heart. However, I am considering whether or not to stay “employed” there as a volunteer.

Surprised?

Me, too…sort of.

You see, I filled out a volunteer’s application almost 5 years’ ago because a.) I loved the Village and thought that, as an herbalist, and a history enthusiast with a photographic memory, that I could make a positive contribution to the establishment, b.) I was hoping to eventually be employed there and c.) I wanted to learn as many of the antiquated practices as I could in exchange for 7 hours of my time every other Sunday. Unfortunately, nothing has worked out the way that I had hoped. Their pay scale is an insult to the many gifted and intelligent paid employees that also populate the Village and I have since decided that I would rather stay as simply a volunteer; I earn more part-time at a local dealership. However, while they still have my free labor for 7 hours every other week, I am not learning any of those antiquated skills. And I’m losing heart because of it.

I have been straining at the bit to learn spinning and weaving. This is typically done in Fenno House and so, I have also been straining at the bit for training in Fenno House. When I first applied, I was told that I would have to work in the Asa Knight store at least 1 year before they would train me for any other station. Fair enough. I jumped right in and, I have to admit, the store is a lot of fun. There is so much to learn there about the economical, political and social climates of the times. There are also numerous and curious items, both on the shelves and in the many drawers, to enchant the history enthusiast. What is this? What was it used for? How was it made–or used? Of course, if we were really in 1838, the store would not be open on the Sabbath and I, being a woman, would likely not be working the counters at all. This was man’s work in 1838. But interpreters are needed in the store so we simply work that in as we share what we know with our visitors. Finally, this past January, training opened up for Fenno House. And I was pumped. After 4 years of working the store and, in the summer months, the Herb Garden, I was finally moving elsewhere–and not just anywhere–but this was the prize I had been hoping for.

And that’s when the bubble burst.

Yes, I did get training. Yes, I am now working in Fenno. But I’m not spinning or weaving. I’m carding wool. That’s it. Yes, one of my all-time favorite books is “The Witch of Blackbird Pond” by Elizabeth George Speare. And I love the scenes where Mercy and Kit spend the afternoons talking while they card wool. Nice. Peaceful. I think I understand though how truly dreary it was for Mercy, who usually did this work by herself. Granted, there are frequent visitors to the Village. And young children, especially, are eager to try their hand at carding. The way their little faces light up is a sight to behold and many of them come back later to try it again. It’s hard to resist this level of enthusiasm. This aspect of it is so much fun and so rewarding that sometimes I wonder what I’m complaining about…

…until I start talking about how carding was a step in the process of getting the wool ready for spinning and, possibly, weaving. There is typically no one demonstrating on either the loom or the Great Wheel. This is something that even the visitors lament, many of them expressing regret that they cannot see the whole process. And I cannot stop myself from gazing at both the Great Wheel and the loom with longing whenever there’s a lull in visitation. It’s not at all what I bargained for and I cannot help wondering if I will have to card wool for another 4-5 years before they will consider me competent enough to spin it.

Okay. So I did consider that maybe my lack of knowledge and skill here is why the hold up but a fellow docent and friend just quit the Village for the same reasons. She, however, did have experience with working fiber; she, too, was only allowed to card wool.

As for other skills?

I would love to learn how to cook on the hearth. Not sure how long it would take before they would give me training. I’d love to learn Fitch and Parsonage, and maybe even, Salem Towne. Of course, the rebel in me would dearly love to learn pottery and tinsmithing but these were strictly male-dominated fields in 1838 and everyone pretty much just scoffs at the idea. The same narrow-minded chauvinism that afflicted our many-times-over-great-grandmothers also afflicts the Village even in 2016. Funny, though, how the rules can so easily be broken in places like the Asa Knight store, where women interpreters are used despite this not being “woman’s work”. Funny, too, how some volunteers have moved right through, learning everything and anything without a hitch…but that’s another story altogether…

Another factor that has me re-thinking my tenure there, one I learned about shortly after I started but, never really faced fully, is that the Village slaughters the livestock that populates the Village. They strive to be as period correct as possible, or so they claim. And I suppose farmers who neglected to work with their oxen on a regular basis in the 1830’s would also slaughter that pair if they became unruly due to that neglect. Such was the fate of Doc and Blue. Though, in this case, Doc and Blue were sold at auction. The end result was the same. Yes, I know. People eat beef, steak. I know how this works. And I’m at least grateful that I didn’t have to see the roasts and racks of ribs that ultimately came from their demise. It doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I know I’m in the minority but I can’t help thinking that the Village is in a place where they can make a difference, where they can demonstrate a more humane practice and allow these wonderful beings to live out their lives in peace but, again, I know I’m in the minority. However, the magic that was OSV has been broken with the loss of Doc and Blue. And I can’t seem to get it back.

And so, while I lamented in my previous posting about being laid up due to a rib injury, a part of me is happy to take that step back and really reflect on how important volunteering at the Village still is to me. I think of having my Sundays back and how much I could accomplish at home with that time. I think of the many projects I have planned–both here, or in Maine, if that’s where we eventually end up. Of course, if we do move to Maine, I won’t be in a place geographically for the Village to be practical for me anyway. So maybe it is time to sever the ties, so to speak…especially if I’m not learning all of those things I had hoped to learn. I mean, I know I tend to be impatient but it’s been 5 years; how much more patient do I have to be? Especially with an hour’s commute each way. The pros and cons are being weighed. And the cons’ list is growing longer than the pros. Many of these skills could be learned elsewhere, either for a minimal fee, or by bartering some Reflexology or Reiki in exchange for the lessons. Where there’s a will, there’s way.

Yet another factor that is weighing on my decision is how much is my time there taking me away from the path to my dreams. I have been working with a career coach, whom I adore, and who has opened my eyes considerably to all of the “distractions” I have created in my life. These are distractions that are taking me away from the things that I really want to do in life: writing, homesteading, goat wrangling, and training Border Collies in both agility and herding. And OSV is starting to look like one of those “distractions”.

God bless you & keep you!

I’m A Bad “Patient”…

I really am a bad “patient”. There’s always so much to do, so much that I want to do and being sick or injured just drives me insane. I have absolutely no patience with being a patient.
It all started a week ago Saturday. I was taking a bucket of compost around back to the bin and, on the way back, I tripped over a fallen branch and fell, hitting the left side of my rib cage on the rim of the compost bucket. Ouch! It was tender and I figured I’d have a good bruise to show for it but that was all. My friend, Heather, arrived with her friend–another Lisa–and then, with Mom, we piled into the car, picked up friend, Karen, and headed to the Connecticut Sheep & Wool Festival. And, as always, it was a blast–the perfect environment to get the creative juices flowing, some green envy when I see others’ skills on the loom or the spinning wheel, and even a good plug for learning more about herding sheep and training the Border Collies to do so (I so want to learn how!). Anyway, all was well until Tuesday morning. Left side was a little tender but no bruise at all–at least on the outside. So I came into my little office/workout space and got down on the mat to do some Hatha Yoga. Well, the very first stretch, raising hands overhead and suddenly I let out a yelp that, surprisingly, didn’t awaken Mom but seemed to echo through the house as something “popped” along the left side of my rib cage. And, for a moment, I couldn’t move. I was afraid to move.
A few hours later, the doc sent me for x-rays, fairly certain I had fractured a rib in that fall and giving me strict orders to take it easy.
And that’s where the trouble began.
No lifting. Well, this is a farm. With livestock. Feed comes in some brightly-colored 50 lb. sacks. Hay bales weigh quite a bit, too. And I’m not going to ask my Mom to lift any of this. So I had to get creative. The floor of the backseat of the car is now feed storage. Little to no mess; feed is in the sacks but I did feel my patience thinning as I traipsed out to the car for the umpteenth time to fill the chicken feeders in the pouring rain. Hay is normally stored in the trunk until I’m ready to bring in the next bale but this is the first time I’ve opened the bales there. It makes quite a mess; I’ll be taking a trip to the car wash soon to use their vacuum cleaners.
No straining or stretching. Yesterday was the first time we saw the sun in almost two weeks. The chicken coop is nothing but mud. Ditto for the hen house. The poor creatures are thoroughly miserable because raking the mud out of their house is the least I can do for them in such weather. But, of course, such activity is quite painful right now. And now that the sun is shining and my rib cage feeling better, I am anticipating the endless list of backed up chores I have on my plate. So, yes, the patience has definitely worn thin.
However, there is a light at the end of this tunnel. The doc got the x-rays back from the lab Friday afternoon. The rib isn’t cracked after all. Instead, I separated the cartilage from the rib bone. Still painful. Still restricting. But at least there’s no danger of puncturing a lung. And that actually makes the impatience more profound. When there was still a possibility of a fracture and the weather was nasty anyway, I could take it all in stride–almost. With the “danger” passed, well, my stride is definitely off. But, as I’m forced to slow down, take it easy and allow the healing to continue, I realize that this was actually His plan all along. I tend to go at everything full speed ahead, never stopping to catch a breath or enjoy the blessings I already have. My body has been angling toward what I call my “crash and burn” phase, which usually lasts a couple of weeks and finds me almost comatose in the easy chair watching re-runs of Dr. Quinn until I get my wind back. I’ve been ignoring the signs. And now I’ve got a very painful reminder to pay attention next time. And, while I’m not comatose, and I’m not watching any re-runs, He did find the perfect way to get me to stop and take just a little time for myself. I have to admit that it feels good. This forced relaxation is keeping the usual busyness at bay just long enough for me to re-connect with what I am most passionate about–writing. Praise the Lord, let’s hope the lesson stays learned.
God bless you & keep you!